Tuesday, December 30, 2008
First thing this morning I was really down in the dumps and tried to blog about it... but kept losing my internet connection... I think God was telling me that brutal honesty on a "public blog" can be dangerous. So maybe this entry won't be written in haste through tears, but just as a healthy journal entry.
I miss my mom, I miss being someone's daughter. My dad is intelligent, fun and a bit of a comedian. He is a friend to all five of us kids...finally. Many years with him have not been the easiest. It is a blessing to think that at this stage of our lives myself and my four siblings enjoy our dad's company and are glad to have him as a friend. For this I am thankful. The relationship with my dad is tricky. Because when my mom was living she was so approachable, so forgiving, easy to talk to, prayerful, loving, fun.... I really could go on and on. We always went to her. All five of us shared our joys, struggles, challenges and accomplishments with our mom. Our dad was working, our dad was busy, our dad was much less approachable. So, when we lost her it was like losing the involved parent, the parent who had invested so much in us and we in her.
All around me are fabulous relationships between mothers and their adult daughters. Most of the time this makes me happy. I encourage my friends to treasure their sweet, precious gift - their mother. But this week, I am envious, I am sad. I wish my grandma had her daughter. I wish my dad had his wife. I WISH my boys had my mom for a grandma. I wish my siblings had her here. I throw myself a pity party.
I have so much to be grateful for, don't get me wrong. And in general I am a very positive person. But rather than closing this entry with all the things I am thankful for and how great my life is, I will close it with one sentence - I miss my mom.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
So although I am surrounded by beauty, I feel for all of these truck drivers battling these winter road conditions. The mountain passes, Snoqualmie, White and Stevens have been hit with some wild weather and the pass closures are really affecting the Milky Way drivers. Vance is very busy with work and the boys are really missing him...but we are often hit with these challenges this time of year and know that winter doesn't last forever.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
THE PLAN WAS to leave for Lynden yesterday morning. Last night was the Christmas Eve celebration at my dads, today would have been the whole family at Stan and Adies, tonight Christmas at my dear Grandma Alma's...and so on. But this state wide storm has really affected the milk hauling business and Vance quickly realized by the evening of the 23rd that a little trip was not in our near future. SO, we are home. Although I am missing family in Lynden, I have tried to have a really good attitude about staying home and our boys have been great about it. It has been a cozy, quiet family day. And the SNOW is absolutely beautiful. I do wish Vance could relax and enjoy it... but the work pressures are evident.
I must say I am sooo thankful for my little family ... I thank God for them, for our health and for this White Christmas.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
This picture of Scott and Sam R. is a favorite. Scott Shaw had asked me to get a few pictures of the cast and choir at the end of the evening. The whole group was on stage, but Huntley was in the back signing autographs, the whole group chanted " Huntley, Huntley" and these were Scott and Sammy's expressions when Huntley came running back in!
Thanks Aubrey for joining me in photographing the evening! I'll share more pics tomorrow!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
This little cabin is such a fun retreat!! More pictures of that tomorrow.